tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-86936906418925965642024-03-19T15:45:04.333-04:00Herb of Grace'There's rue for you and here's some for me; we may call it herb of grace o' Sundays.'lislynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10226221709279544399noreply@blogger.comBlogger903125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8693690641892596564.post-91021285043066739552023-07-02T18:24:00.000-04:002023-07-02T18:24:05.108-04:00Kayaking Blackwater Creek<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQ_bXjQedtuXEgh8xAIu6L-BAaKOmJ-oMemSIlAPDLwzftlh4VJHiR0Ljn_PQO_QpOgrrG3q6sgUa8lrKTIRJMyW-U9k6NqVN-li1JDOln7MUjthNZCWueQikxhvALNO4jkA6De3BEFWfuI6kZ9byoY3IL-VGYysKwRqSIcxsbq4aUzXH5DRpTGyavYSw/s1880/Hollins%20Mill%207223.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1576" data-original-width="1880" height="268" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQ_bXjQedtuXEgh8xAIu6L-BAaKOmJ-oMemSIlAPDLwzftlh4VJHiR0Ljn_PQO_QpOgrrG3q6sgUa8lrKTIRJMyW-U9k6NqVN-li1JDOln7MUjthNZCWueQikxhvALNO4jkA6De3BEFWfuI6kZ9byoY3IL-VGYysKwRqSIcxsbq4aUzXH5DRpTGyavYSw/s320/Hollins%20Mill%207223.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><p>It was a beautiful afternoon on Blackwater Creek... Did you know there is a canoe launch at Hollins Mill Park? </p><div>Did you know you can paddle up the Creek? In and out of shadows and the relentless Southern July sun, thru the mimosa arches dropping their fluffy pink Dr Seuss puffball flowers into the water...</div><div><br /></div><div>You can watch a wood duck lift his improbably large body into panicked flight, barely escaping gravitational pull long enough to make it to the further bank and make a comical, beak-first crash-landing into what may be his winter house. Or weekend condo. Or batcave. Or whatever wood ducks have on the opposite banks of creeks, across from the nest you surprised on this side as you paddled past.</div><div><br /></div><div>You can paddle up and up until the kayak bottoms out and you have to step out and sink ankle deep into the softly clinging silt, filling your sandal, gritty between your toes. You can haul your kayak up over your head like the intrepid explorer you are... only today. Not usually this much of a risk-taker, preferring mostly to read about intrepid explorers, rather than emulate them. You can rock-hop your way past the shallows to the next stretch of deep water and keep paddling on.</div><div><br /></div><div>Or you can slowly turn around and float back down the current, surrendering to the elements, eyes unfocused, slightly drunk with the heat and the motion of the water. You can let the blazing southern sun burn the fire of hurt and grief out of you and float along the water and stop trying so damn hard for one lazy hour of the week. You can take selfies under the mimosa tree and admire the pink-fluff-covered water and breath in the mud-wet-pollen-laden air, and be for a few effortless minutes a Harper Lee heroine, or a William Faulkner character who has a predetermined story arc already written for them, instead of a 44 year old woman still trying to figure out how to write the next part of this insignificant story.</div>lislynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10226221709279544399noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8693690641892596564.post-681890344133717402022-01-01T09:27:00.002-05:002022-01-01T09:34:27.366-05:00Resignation to the New Year<p style="text-align: left;"></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhOIGmf7plrGoMcwKDUFL-YI5TOECOucqYI9zY7F9AqsZHm3pnJIcX_pPDNOe2E9KObZtglYIb1JxI56o5J6IEF5hFYlsqHkFnT7Oh_-v3Xpqt7wQRp8AT6Jb9JHkKyz5CGPlmVF8gdm920agCu7C6XIheEtxxpNc7pp202Z86jQMA1ZVvAd9L1UY5L=s1080" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1080" data-original-width="1080" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhOIGmf7plrGoMcwKDUFL-YI5TOECOucqYI9zY7F9AqsZHm3pnJIcX_pPDNOe2E9KObZtglYIb1JxI56o5J6IEF5hFYlsqHkFnT7Oh_-v3Xpqt7wQRp8AT6Jb9JHkKyz5CGPlmVF8gdm920agCu7C6XIheEtxxpNc7pp202Z86jQMA1ZVvAd9L1UY5L=s320" width="320" /></a></div><br /> And so the New Year limps up my front walk-- no fat jolly baby, is 2022. This Year is thin, gray, wet, and naked. She shivers on my porch, hesitant as to her welcome, as well she might be. The past two years have felt little welcome here, bringing grief upon grief upon loss upon loss. No wonder that she hesitates, dripping.<p></p><p>I stand on this side, and she on that, and we glare at one another through the doorway. The mat on the floor in my front hall says 'Welcome,' and we both understand the inevitability of her entrance. I am no fool, thinking I can hold back the march of time across my doorstep, but for just a brief moment we hesitate and pay homage to the power of the threshold and a householder's invitation. </p><p>"Fine," I say. "You might as well come in." She gathers up her stringy, sodden hair, wringing out streams of <span style="background-color: white;">brackish</span> water and steps gingerly onto the Welcome mat. I can see her give it a brief side-eye. "Well," I say, "You definitely aren't quite what we were hoping for, but now that you're here, we might as well get to know one another."</p><p>I hand her a towel, and a blanket, and a glass of rum. She may not technically be old enough to drink yet, but she's probably going to need it, if past experience is any indication. Her two predecessors were quite the boozers-- with good reason. We sit, more or less next to each other, by the fire, and I fill her in on what she's up against, feeling a little sympathy, in spite of my resentment. This poor kid. Is it her fault, really?</p><p>"Hey, listen," I say. "I'm not blaming you, exactly. It's just that were all a little worn down, you know? Maybe you could just try and go easy on everyone. At least maybe a couple gorgeous snow days, and then an early spring? And fewer wildfires? Or maybe just only ONE new variant? If you could arrange that, I bet we could come up with some fireworks, or maybe even a parade for you when you're on your way out next December. What do you say?"</p><p>2022 looks at me through her lashes (is that a glint in her eye?). She wets her lips gingerly (or did she just lick them?) and gives me a grave, quiet smile (are her teeth POINTED??), and holds out her glass for a refill.</p><p>"No promises," she says (is that a low growl??), and stares into the fire.</p><p><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i><b>what have i done</b></i></span></p>lislynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10226221709279544399noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8693690641892596564.post-9001780994407117462021-05-06T08:10:00.002-04:002021-05-06T08:35:45.312-04:00Joy #6<p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj6hyDwXJPvRQ7VvJ68Av0nuv2otKwb-J8TboAD90Mx6CJKdpxPcTBxFvHPNH9QVGirSpyGScw3xYzWnMJ9ajsGvYMdOueV8pTzp3ksS4v7KQKpfQGgzDTKvE2E2OsxD7evwqBZpQAfTTc/s4032/IMG_20210329_081931389_HDR.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj6hyDwXJPvRQ7VvJ68Av0nuv2otKwb-J8TboAD90Mx6CJKdpxPcTBxFvHPNH9QVGirSpyGScw3xYzWnMJ9ajsGvYMdOueV8pTzp3ksS4v7KQKpfQGgzDTKvE2E2OsxD7evwqBZpQAfTTc/s320/IMG_20210329_081931389_HDR.jpg" /></a></div><br /> It's a slow spring this year...<p></p><p> In Virginia, spring is often a "wham, bam, thank you, Ma'am" affair of two weeks' gorgeous weather in between blizzards and suffocating heat and humidity, but this year we've been gifted with a slow trickle of perfect days. It's almost as if Lady Spring understands what we've all been through in the last ten months, since she last left us. Perhaps she understands that our bruised selves would startle and shy away from her usual sudden glorious appearance and equally spectacular departure. We are all, like abused children, a little nervous of the sudden, the glorious, the spectacular. Afraid to trust, after long-deferred hope, the glimmer of a new horizon ahead.</p><p>So this year, Spring is dropping two, or maybe three, beautiful days into each week. Chilly nights, followed by clear, bright mornings-- like waking up inside a watercolor painting. We keep forgetting where we are in the year and leaving the windows open all night, waking up to a legitimate need for fuzzy bathrobes and slippers. By early afternoon, we're shedding sweatshirts and hauling t-shirts and tank tops out of drawers, and heading outside to soak up all sunshine we've been starving for this long, dark winter.</p><p>In deference to our precarious emotions, Spring seems to retreat every so often-- a night or two in the 30s and 40s threatening the dogwoods, the lilacs and the pears; giving us a moment to collect ourselves, to acclimate to the danger of hope. Or, perhaps gives us a foretaste now and then of what's to come-- an afternoon of blazing 80s and sunburn, firming up some weak resolve, stiffening up a spine here and there. She dances in and out, teasing gently, slowly lifting our bowed and weary hearts toward the summer, asking us to trust her promise of a coming end to our long ordeal.</p>lislynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10226221709279544399noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8693690641892596564.post-83543703363806509272021-04-21T11:09:00.000-04:002021-04-21T11:09:05.334-04:00Joy #4 and #5: bending and letting goThrough my entire life I've been surrounded by the metaphor of parenting as archer, launching his arrows (a quiverful of them, ideally) into the world; by faith, extending his/her influence into the generations to come. That metaphor came to define my life, as it progressively inspired, challenged, eluded, and then tortured me, as it became evident that God and I didn't see eye to eye about the size of my quiver, and I realized that arrows can frequently (heartbreakingly frequently) fall from quiver, straight to the ground, un-launched, never held in the archers hand.<div><br /></div><div>Today a friend shared this poem with me. I read it, ugly-cried for about twenty minutes, and realized for the first time in my life that I have long misunderstood the metaphor. </div><div><br /></div><div>I'm not the archer.</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm the bow.</div><div><br /></div><div>All that is required of me is that I bend, to the breaking point perhaps, and then... Let go. I do not need to see the target. I do not need to aim anything. I do not need to make the arrow, hold the arrow (my heart!), string it correctly-- no skill of mine is required. His is the quiver, his is the watchful eye, the strength to launch, the wisdom to test the wind, proof the arrow, and guide it true to the heart of chosen target. All that is asked of me is that I devote my life to bend and bend and bend under the hand of the Archer; who loves me, and these Arrows, which are His, not mine. Bend, and then, by God's grace, let them go. </div><div><br /></div><div><div class="card-header pb-2 pt-3 bg-white" data-v-197036e9="" style="background-color: white; border-bottom: 1px solid transparent; box-sizing: border-box; color: #343434; font-family: "Founders Grotesk", -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, "Helvetica Neue", Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding-bottom: 0.6rem !important; padding-left: 3.25rem; padding-right: 1.25rem; padding-top: 1.2rem !important;"><div data-v-197036e9="" style="box-sizing: border-box;"><div class="d-flex poem__title mb-1" data-v-197036e9="" style="-webkit-box-direction: normal; -webkit-box-orient: horizontal; -webkit-box-pack: justify; box-sizing: border-box; display: flex !important; flex-direction: row; justify-content: space-between; margin-bottom: 0.3rem !important;"><h1 class="card-title" data-v-197036e9="" itemprop="name" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "Poets Electra Roman No 2"; font-size: 2.5rem; font-style: italic; font-weight: 500; line-height: 3rem; margin-bottom: 0.75rem; margin-top: 0px;">On Children</h1></div><span class="card-subtitle" data-v-197036e9="" style="box-sizing: border-box; color: var(--black); font-size: 1.25rem; line-height: 1.4; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: -0.375rem;"><a class="" data-v-197036e9="" href="https://poets.org/poet/kahlil-gibran" itemprop="author" style="background-color: transparent; box-sizing: border-box; color: #007ab3; text-decoration-line: none;" target="_self">Kahlil Gibran</a><span class="dates" data-v-197036e9="" style="box-sizing: border-box;"> - 1883-1931</span></span></div></div><div class="card-body" data-v-197036e9="" style="-webkit-box-flex: 1; box-sizing: border-box; color: #343434; flex: 1 1 auto; font-family: "Poets Electra", Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 1.25rem; line-height: 1.5; padding: 1.25rem;"><div class="poem__actions vertical dark" data-v-197036e9="" data-v-1e4a20ad="" style="-webkit-box-flex: 1; 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box-sizing: border-box; margin: 6px; vertical-align: middle;" /></a></li></ul><div data-v-1e4a20ad="" style="box-sizing: border-box;"></div><div data-v-1e4a20ad="" style="box-sizing: border-box;"></div></div><div class="poem__body px-md-4 font-serif" data-v-197036e9="" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 1.1rem; padding-left: 0.5rem !important; padding-right: 0.5rem !important;"><p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin-bottom: 1rem; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="long-line" style="box-sizing: border-box; display: inline-block; margin-left: 32px; text-indent: -32px;">And a woman who held a babe against her bosom said, Speak to us of Children.</span><br style="box-sizing: border-box;" /><span class="long-line" style="box-sizing: border-box; display: inline-block; margin-left: 32px; text-indent: -32px;"> And he said:</span><br style="box-sizing: border-box;" /><span class="long-line" style="box-sizing: border-box; display: inline-block; margin-left: 32px; text-indent: -32px;"> Your children are not your children.</span><br style="box-sizing: border-box;" /><span class="long-line" style="box-sizing: border-box; display: inline-block; margin-left: 32px; text-indent: -32px;"> They are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself.</span><br style="box-sizing: border-box;" /><span class="long-line" style="box-sizing: border-box; display: inline-block; margin-left: 32px; text-indent: -32px;"> They come through you but not from you,</span><br style="box-sizing: border-box;" /><span class="long-line" style="box-sizing: border-box; display: inline-block; margin-left: 32px; text-indent: -32px;"> And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.</span></p><p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin-bottom: 1rem; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="long-line" style="box-sizing: border-box; display: inline-block; margin-left: 32px; text-indent: -32px;"> You may give them your love but not your thoughts,</span><br style="box-sizing: border-box;" /><span class="long-line" style="box-sizing: border-box; display: inline-block; margin-left: 32px; text-indent: -32px;"> For they have their own thoughts.</span><br style="box-sizing: border-box;" /><span class="long-line" style="box-sizing: border-box; display: inline-block; margin-left: 32px; text-indent: -32px;"> You may house their bodies but not their souls,</span><br style="box-sizing: border-box;" /><span class="long-line" style="box-sizing: border-box; display: inline-block; margin-left: 32px; text-indent: -32px;"> For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.</span><br style="box-sizing: border-box;" /><span class="long-line" style="box-sizing: border-box; display: inline-block; margin-left: 32px; text-indent: -32px;"> You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.</span><br style="box-sizing: border-box;" /><span class="long-line" style="box-sizing: border-box; display: inline-block; margin-left: 32px; text-indent: -32px;"> For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.</span><br style="box-sizing: border-box;" /><span class="long-line" style="box-sizing: border-box; display: inline-block; margin-left: 32px; text-indent: -32px;"> You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth.</span><br style="box-sizing: border-box;" /><span class="long-line" style="box-sizing: border-box; display: inline-block; margin-left: 32px; text-indent: -32px;"> The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, and He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far.</span><br style="box-sizing: border-box;" /><span class="long-line" style="box-sizing: border-box; display: inline-block; margin-left: 32px; text-indent: -32px;"> Let your bending in the archer’s hand be for gladness;</span><br style="box-sizing: border-box;" /><span class="long-line" style="box-sizing: border-box; display: inline-block; margin-left: 32px; text-indent: -32px;"> For even as He loves the arrow that flies, so He loves also the bow that is stable.</span></p></div></div></div>lislynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10226221709279544399noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8693690641892596564.post-10462255273643983822021-01-25T08:18:00.000-05:002021-01-25T08:18:11.385-05:00Joy #2<p> Foundations are comforting. </p><p>Our house is closing in on its one hundredth birthday and, while the pipes are leaky, the floors are creaky, and the electrical system is one you really only want to look at with your head on one side and one eye closed; the foundation is solid. It's drafty and worn-down, but the walls are thick and you can tell it's weathered many a violent thrashing from both inside and outside weathers of various kinds.</p><p>The last three years of our first twenty years of marriage have been difficult, to say the least. We've tested our relationship in ways I never imagined, or wanted, but the foundation is solid. We're both exhausted-- soul-weary-- and we're definitely in a mood to circle the wagons and hunker down with our small brood inside this tight protected center of five. But I've realized that what we have created over the years through mutual sacrifice of self and willingness to bend and mold to accommodate each other is a solid, intertwined foundation of shared beliefs, priorities, ideals, and experiences that is still weathering this season of heartbreak and testing-- from both inside and outside weathers of various kinds.</p><p>The deepest testing this year has come, fittingly, to the foundation under the foundation; the bedrock on which the foundation was laid nearly twenty years ago. My faith has taken a beating this year. Brought fully into the glaring light of public demonstration and public scrutiny, my faith in the church and her people has been turned upside down and shaken hard. A lot of dirt fell out of places I wasn't aware existed. I gradually realized that my Christian identity had been set on a layer of quicksand; cultural similarities, community of common experiences, and comforting notions of easy externalities. The problem with wearing Christianity like a mask is that when push comes to shove and the masks fall off, sometimes you just don't recognize the faces underneath. Sometimes they are hard, shiny, and unsmiling.</p><p>But. Also. Under that layer of shifting sand, my faith in the Father of lights, with whom there is no shifting or shadow, found a solid rock. A cornerstone. This foundation, too, has withstood millennia of violent thrashings from both inside and outside weathers of various kinds. It is good to remember that this latest storm, although the first for me, is only another in a long series through which Christ has brought His Bride. Battered she may be, and worn, with painful truths revealed and laid bare; reviled and rebuked for her sins, but Redeemed and continuously Reclaimed, nonetheless. And the promise remains:</p><p><span style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;">The church’s one foundation</span><br style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;" /><span style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;">is Jesus Christ, our Lord;</span><br style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;" /><span style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;">we are a new creation</span><br style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;" /><span style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;">by water and the Word.</span><br style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;" /><span style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;">From heav’n he came and taught us</span><br style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;" /><span style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;">what perfect love can be;</span><br style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;" /><span style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;">through life and death he sought us,</span><br style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;" /><span style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;">and rose to set us free.</span></p><p><span style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;">Still, schisms, tribulation,</span><br style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;" /><span style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;">and hatred fuel our war;</span><br style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;" /><span style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;">we wait the consummation</span><br style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;" /><span style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;">of peace forevermore.</span><br style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;" /><span style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;">The saints their watch are keeping;</span><br style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;" /><span style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;">their cry goes up, “How long?”</span><br style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;" /><span style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;">And soon the night of weeping</span><br style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;" /><span style="background-color: #f0edd3; color: #0a3f64; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;">shall be the morn of song.</span></p>lislynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10226221709279544399noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8693690641892596564.post-76880048981788551942021-01-14T08:04:00.000-05:002021-01-14T08:04:01.778-05:00Joy #1<p><span style="font-size: large;"><i> The sun comes up every morning over the mountain ridge outside my living room windows. It slowly creeps across the floor, the angles changing slightly, minute by minute. As it unrolls its golden way along the planks; dog hair, bread crumbs, paper scraps, and dust mites are revealed in sharp relief. </i></span></p><p><span style="font-size: large;"><i>These windows face the back of my house, so they aren't top priority on those absent-minded window-washing episodes while I'm on the phone with a friend and need something to do with my hands that doesn't require my brain to pay attention to any other than the talking and the living together that's going on in my ears. So these windows... they're a little rough. You can see that I occasionally get to them, maybe at the tail end of the phone call-- there are some hazy swipes and swirls through the grime that prove they aren't totally neglected. </i></span></p><p><span style="font-size: large;"><i>But all over the double panes there are small hand prints. Full on, five-fingered, un-blemished; the perfect hand prints every Sunday School craft teacher dreams of. They are beautiful. The Thursday morning sun catches the edges and lights them on fire and my heart dances in the blaze for a moment, before I turn back to my humdrum, every day life.</i></span></p>lislynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10226221709279544399noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8693690641892596564.post-33082563063757889962020-11-18T08:56:00.001-05:002020-11-18T08:57:41.309-05:00Sincere, if a little dramatic.For a full decade, the year 2010 has stood out as The Worst Ever, but 2020 has topped that. And then some. Besides all the national and international crap going on, there's plenty of personal grief and struggle-- ghosted friendships, broken relationships, illness, financial struggles, strife, and loss. But the most critical and devastating loss of all has been watching the widening crack in the foundations of an institution that I have loved: the American Evangelical Church. <br /><br />I've watched, heartbroken, in disbelief, as men and women that I would have considered brothers and sisters have sold their souls for political power under the guise of "protecting the unborn" and "maintaining the rule of law" and "defending the traditional family". Y'all, you begged God for a King and you got a King Saul. You forgot that the way of the Gospel is the low way, the way of humility, weakness, and sacrifice. You wanted a shortcut to Salvation and an easy way to establish the Kingdom of God, but you forgot that only God himself can change minds and soften hearts and you can't vote in a strong man to establish a judicial version of the Kingdom. Y'all, if you want to grab the jawbone of an ox and start slaying Philistines, you better read the whole story and make sure that Samson is really who you want leading that fight. Remember, Samson was a symbol of the depths of Isreal's fallen state. That story isn't telling us to go out and find us a Samson. And you better make damn sure that you're getting Samson and not just a Philistine king who wants a patsy to take care of his political rivals for him.<br /><br />'Cause, y'all? With love... you've become a patsy. Maybe it started out right. I'm willing to concede that at some point your hearts were in the right place, your intentions were good, but dear God in heaven, look where we've come! Y'all got drunk with power and then you ran amuck and now you're just the shills of a unscrupulous huckster who knows all the right words, sweet nothings, to whisper in your ears to bring you running to his side: "Protect the unborn" he says, and you close your eyes to the weeping children severed from their families. "Defend the rule of law" he says, and you turn your backs to the abuse of your disenfranchised brothers. Like a gas-lit abused spouse, you're heatbreakingly easy to trigger and control, tagging along, docile, behind the very power that is wreaking your undoing.<div><br /></div><div>Y'all, read the history of the church; every damn time we try to do it our way, every time we try to use political power, force, and militancy to "do God's work" it goes terribly, terribly badly. From the Crusades to the Spanish Inquisition to Colonial-Missionary-ism (or whatever you want to call that)-- whenever the Church has sought to spread the Gospel without humility, sacrifice, suffering, and personal loss, we have failed; utterly and miserably. Christians with political power are a terrifyingly dangerous thing for God's creation. </div><div><br /></div><div>And this is why I have to write this... History tells us that God won't stand for it. There's a day of reckoning coming. Y'all, humble Jesus is still in the business of turning over the tables of the rich who take up the space in His temple meant for the foreigners and the social outcasts. He's still in the business of whipping out the greedy men taking advantage of the poor, the widow, and the orphan. At some point, y'all started assuming that the point of that story was that it's ok to pick up a whip now and then, but I tell you what, I'm pretty sure it was way more about warning US not to pollute the House of the Lord. We've got the story backwards in our heads and hearts. At this point, we're the Pharisees. We're the backsliding Isrealites. We're the Phillistines. We're Babylon.</div><div><br /></div><div>So this is me, shaking the dust of Babylon, the American Church, off my feet. "Come out of her, my People" (Revelation 18:4, Jeremiah 51:6, 45), -- I'm hearing that in my soul. I love the church and I love her people, but for now, I'm going to stand over here, out of the line of fire. </div>lislynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10226221709279544399noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8693690641892596564.post-26522296885736178492020-10-05T22:31:00.001-04:002020-10-05T22:31:54.564-04:00Paradox<p> Every parent is likely familiar with the subtle desire to recreate your children in your own image, but with all the bits you don't like about yourself corrected. We all do this, right? And of course, as autonomous entities, individual souls made in the image of God, they resist this with a mighty will and eventually forge their own paths forward. The ultimate test of the relationship we so carefully molded in their early years: can those loving ties survive the stretching? Will we all enter our new roles of adult peers with all the cords still intact, strongly connecting us to one another, albeit at a mutually respectful distance from one another? That is the question. The final marker of parenting success or failure. It's a little scary.</p><p>On the other hand, it can be exhilarating. Every day I'm surprised and delighted by what my children are becoming. And I'm trying more and more to lean into that delight, rather than focus so intensely on the bits of my own sin nature that I want to erase in them. One truly delightful surprise that's emerging as they grow-- something I only notice when I stop trying to make them better than I am at art, sports, music, personal devotions, math, etc--is their affinity for writing. Oh my. While I was busy trying to make them smarter, kinder, stronger, and less addicted to screen time and sugar, they were busy becoming Writers, behind my back. </p><p>And so this morning, in the sideways light of an early fall Sunday morning, I'm sitting side by side with my youngest as we both play with words-- creating new worlds and telling new stories. How funny, and how humbling, that while I was preoccupied with preventing him from becoming something less than I want him to be, God was busy making him something more than I even thought of. Something a bit akin to the best in me...</p>lislynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10226221709279544399noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8693690641892596564.post-83251586926750174402020-09-01T08:49:00.001-04:002020-09-01T09:06:22.113-04:00On surrender.<br />If I could travel back in time, there's a thing I desperately wish I could tell my twenty-two year old self: newly entered into motherhood, overwhelmed with the immense stretch of required selflessness and sacrifice that unexpectedly opened up before me with the birth of my daughter. I was vastly unprepared for the unraveling of the Self I thought I had known for so long, or for this awkward, almost violent remaking of myself into Mother. It felt as though I'd fallen, unawares, into one of those whirlpools that draw swimmers into deep underground caves and then, if the swimmer has the smarts to simply surrender to the current, spits them out again onto the sunny shores of sparkling blue waters, in delightful hidden coves.<br /><br />I wish I could go back and have a long talk with that slightly bemused, but adapting-nicely young mother on the beach of that secluded cove. I wish I could impress upon her that those whirlpool currents repeat themselves again and again throughout life. I wish I could have prepared her for the repeated un-makings that lay ahead of her in the journey of being made more like Him.<br /><br />I wish I could impress upon her the necessity not to get too comfortable here, convince her that the period of time spent in that space of continuous mothering was, mathematically speaking, such a tiny fraction of her life-- the time of being large and in charge, while feeling so inadequate and drained was really just a moment of her life. I would try to warn her that this drastic stripping away of illusory shreds of self-determination and independence was only the beginning...<br /><br />Would that have changed things? I don't know. If I had realized then that life is really a series of these whirlpool roller coasters from one level of self-loss to another, from one unmaking and rebirth to the next, would I have been better prepared?<br /><br /><i><b><span style="font-size: medium;">He who seeks to save his life shall lose it. He who loses his life, gains the world.<br /></span></b></i><br />I doubt it would make a difference then. I know it now, and I still fight the current every time. I still arrive on the new beach fighting to swim back to the one I've left, the one I'd grown accustomed to. I lie there, utterly undone, exhausted, wrecked; for far too long, considering how often now I've experienced this remaking process as God's grace to me. Why can I still not trust that the change is, as he promised, from Glory to Glory?<br /><br />I'm never ready for change-- no matter how sought after, how intensely pursued. I always find myself doubting in the moment of achievement, struggling against the pull. My labors were a physical manifestation of this. Days and then weeks past my due date, I'm still vastly pregnant. Irritated with the delay, exhilarated by every twinge that might signify the start of labor, and yet so doubtful, so afraid. Finally reaching that terrifying middle where one MUST go forward, through, because the backwards way of escape is no longer an option. There's nothing else to do but push the baby out. Die to the past, be reborn. Forgetting what is behind, striving forward to what lies ahead. <div><br /></div><div>I can only hope that eventually I will learn to surrender to those terrifying currents and anticipate the next stage of growth with something a little more gracious and dignified than my current frantic thrashings and protestations. Hopefully, as I age, I will learn to trust the loving currents, and wait confidently, expectantly for the landing on the next shore.</div><div><br /></div><div><b><i><span style="font-size: medium;">This is my prayer.<br /></span></i></b><br /><br /><a href="https://drive.google.com/u/0/settings/storage?hl=en&utm_medium=web&utm_source=gmail&utm_campaign=manage_storage"></a><br /><a href="https://www.google.com/intl/en/policies/terms/"></a><a href="https://www.google.com/intl/en/policies/privacy/"></a><a href="https://www.google.com/gmail/about/policy/"></a><br /><br /> <br /><br /><br /> <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><div class="vY nq" style="color: #202124; font-family: roboto, robotodraft, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; height: 632.589px; left: 0px; position: absolute; top: 0px; visibility: hidden; width: 1292.8px; z-index: -2;"></div><div style="color: #202124; font-family: roboto, robotodraft, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><div></div></div><div class="dw np" style="color: #202124; font-family: roboto, robotodraft, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; height: 632.589px; left: 0px; overflow: hidden; position: absolute; top: 0px; visibility: hidden; width: 1292.8px; z-index: -1;"><div class="nH" style="width: 1292.8px;"><div class="nH" style="height: 632.589px;"><div class="no" style="float: right;"><div class="nH nn" style="float: left; min-height: 1px; order: 2147483647; width: 8px;"></div><div class="nH nn" style="float: left; min-height: 1px; order: 0; width: 56px;"></div></div><div class="dJ" style="clear: both; height: 0px; overflow: hidden;"></div></div></div></div><br /></div>lislynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10226221709279544399noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8693690641892596564.post-59534598695308397772019-11-05T08:24:00.000-05:002019-11-05T08:30:31.836-05:00the secrets of simple things<br />
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standing still for a few moments by the window, I force myself to notice the world outside. And my heart is warmed-- a touch of healing.<br />
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There's been rain this week, and we finally raked an entire tree's worth of leaves from the yard to the curb, so now the birds are in Paradise-- our barren muddy yard their cornucopia of insect delight.<br />
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There are still one or two scarlet leaves in the towering maple, slowly floating to the ground, here and there, on a breath of wind in the early morning sunlight.<br />
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Birds flitting. Leaves falling.<br />
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I shift my weight from foot to foot, resisting the urge to get moving, be doing, and undoing, the pressures of work, family, life. The floorboards creak, protesting. In their voice, I hear the hundred year old bulwark of this house reminding me that there is nothing new under the sun. No new threat to my peace and security-- this is all part of the human condition: condemned, redeemed, renewed.<br />
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and the birds dance across my window<br />
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An old man strides down the sidewalk, intentional, but unhurried. He has that upright, lanky movement men sometimes use, every leg joint contributing to increased forward energy-- like a marionette, freed from his strings to pursue an independent purpose. Men's purposes are forever the same: love, security, fame, and sometimes evil. But only sometimes.<br />
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and the leaves are spinning lazily down<br />
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a downy woodpecker hangs head first from the dead limb in the dogwood. There must be a buffet of insect life in that old rotten branch I meant to cut off, but never seem to get around to. The bugs eat the dead dogwood. The woodpecker eats the bugs. Death to life, and death to life again. Ut semper.<br />
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and the whole flock riots joyously from limb to grass<br />
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<br />lislynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10226221709279544399noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8693690641892596564.post-70320791448371243662019-04-10T17:07:00.000-04:002019-04-10T17:09:52.076-04:00You might not know what you think you know about me<i><b><span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">(April is Autism Awareness month, so this post is specifically about the experience of neuro-challenged parenting, but I want to high five all the moms out there dealing with the so-called "Silent", or "Invisible" disabilities. Just because you can't see a difference, doesn't mean there aren't massive challenges in a parenting relationship.)</span></b></i><br />
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<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">You become somewhat gun-shy after years of one completely unpredictable crisis after another. You tend to hover; circling, ever-vigilant. The warning signs are minute: the sharp intake of breath, the stare, the increased frequency and intensity of the knuckles drumming against the door frame, and there's a brief moment where the crisis may be averted. If you get it right, say the right words, follow the correct protocol, you may prevent the head-banging, the wailing, the running... or maybe not, after all. Sometimes there is no right way.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Before you call her permissive, a push-over, lenient-- judging her conciliatory, comforting response to a child seemingly out of control; ask yourself if you know for sure what that child is experiencing. Has a malfunction in your autonomic nervous system ever left you gasping in a wash of adrenaline-fueled terror because one of your shoes was tied tighter than the other? Have you ever been betrayed by your own brain chemistry, in an instant when an otherwise typically human variation in schedule, flavor, texture, or expectation triggers rebellion in the ranks of neurons and that variation suddenly looms, colossus-like, threatening all that is good and right in your world? Have you ever found yourself attempting to quell the three-ring circus of a creative brain stimulated by too many options and thoughts, never quite able to settle long enough on any one topic to express yourself fully?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Probably not. Probably your neuro-typical brain has never betrayed you to the nightmares of sensory processing disorders, autism, ADD/ADHD. Unless you are part of the 2%, you take your cognitive function more or less for granted. Unless someone you love is among the 1-in-10, you may have never considered the blessing of single-minded focus and smooth mental transitions.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i>(these are all <b>my</b> words, they are not all <b>my</b> stories)</i></span>lislynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10226221709279544399noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8693690641892596564.post-63713419152903633072019-02-23T11:40:00.000-05:002019-02-23T11:40:43.689-05:00Lessons on Faith from Michelangelo's Pieta<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>One of the highlights of our trip to Rome last week never made it to photodocumentation on my Facebook feed. There are some experiences too deep to capture with electronic means and I find myself turning back to the ancient art of the thousand words...</i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">On our third day, we toured St Peter's Basilica. I hadn't done a lot of research for that trip so I was caught off guard by the sudden appearance before my eyes of Michelangelo's Pieta. I recognized it instantly in spite of my ignorance. There was quite a crowd in front of it, but I pushed my way to the rail and stood, utterly captivated, entranced for several minutes. The next day we came back, and again the magic of that serene, pure white monument to the deep peace of complete faith, even in the face of tragedy, captured me entirely.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I'm sure you all have, as I had, seen this work of art in magazine and newspaper photographs, in travel blogs, on documentaries over the years. But let me assure you that none of those can capture the emotion of seeing it up close and in person. Michelangelo has broken with previous tradition and represents Mary as a young mother with her adult son, crucified, lifeless (for the moment) in her arms. But her gaze is not full of anguish-- she is not grieving, merely solemn. She does not clutch her son's body in despair, but rather her hand is outstretched, open, ready to receive. The expression on her face is one of peace, surrender, trust.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Our guide pointed out that experts have surmised that Michelangelo intended to portray not necessarily the middle-aged Mary, actually holding her dead son; but rather the young mother gazing at her infant son, yet perceiving what must come-- the vision of a second sight personified in marble.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">When he said that I felt an instant connection with that concept. Aren't we all like Mary in those moments when our children are young, safe, loved, protected in our arms? Who has not looked down at their sleeping infant, in a moment suddenly burdened with the realization that in that precious bundle is contained a whole life, a future that needs must contain much sorrow, struggle, and grief?</span><br />
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She is old now and a little scruffy as to shrubbery and shutters,</div>
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The cracked stucco covered with vinyl-- less glamorous, but more practical.</div>
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Kickball, soccer, tag, and garden-of-statues.</div>
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She has always welcomed children.</div>
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And the doorknob tends to fall out when guests attempt to leave.</div>
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As though she were saying: no, don't leave yet, </div>
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Stay and rest.</div>
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Stepping across her threshold in the morning or in the evening, in particular, </div>
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Light pours through the windowed walls, the french doors, the transoms.</div>
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I thought, walking across this threshold will always lift my spirits</div>
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Here is joy.</div>
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"She's built like a tank, this house" the home inspector told us.</div>
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There is an old crack in the foundation, you can see it.</div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">The word for me in 2017 was <b><a href="https://theforsheyfour.blogspot.com/2017/01/i-have-always-loved-but-never-before.html" target="_blank">Steadfast</a></b>. When the Lord put that word on my heart a year ago, I could never have foreseen what was in store for us, nor how significant that word would be. 2017 was apparently a rough year for a lot of people, if FB statuses in my friend groups are any indication... It was rough for us, too. So much heartache, so much brokenness, so much stress and grief around us at every turn. But the Lord remained Steadfast in His graciousness to us. And He upheld me in my commitment to remain Steadfast in my various areas of responsibility (marriage, parenting, business, self-care, friendships, etc). It was a good word for a year full of difficult, but rewarding growth. And even in the midst of the raging storm around us, our little family was sheltered and kept safe.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Unfortunately, as a flawed human who tends always to over-correct in every direction of growth, I think I have let the difficulty of this year sink in a little too deeply. I think my Steadfastness has begun to harden into stoicism, even tinged with some resentment, as I've persevered under pressure. I was particularly convicted recently by a brief conversation with a family member. She said, in the midst of a conversation, "you don't seem very happy." Not in a scolding way, I read compassion in those words. </span><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>(Not to worry, M.!)</i></span><span style="font-size: large;"> But the Lord was pricking my conscience... That brief comment came as a lightbulb moment at the end of a week or two of subtle hints and pondering-- and then at breakfast yesterday morning at my aunt's house, pulling this coffee cup at random out of the cupboard, the final confirmation: </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">There it is. My word of 2018. </span><b><span style="font-size: x-large;">Rejoice</span></b><span style="font-size: large;">. I'm meditating on small moments, simple mercies, the everyday beauty-- noticing the Joy in the midst of the brokenness. But I'm also looking forward and rejoicing in the hope of the day that all is healed, becomes new. I have been bearing precious seed, I've been planting and tending and in many cases, watering with tear. I will hold fast to this promise that I will one day see my harvest.</span></div>
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lislynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10226221709279544399noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8693690641892596564.post-57919601254742369192017-06-14T14:53:00.000-04:002017-06-14T14:53:35.757-04:00Keeping it real. Always.One of my goals on this blog has always been to show the Real of my life-- even when it gets messy and unpleasant. Same goes for my Facebook page. Y'all have seen my bedhead, my messy kitchen, my unibrow, my totally unorganized homeschool day, and the level of my children's expertise with their housework.<br />
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But I'll confess that there are still some emotions, some experiences that I do filter out. Sometimes because the stories aren't mine to share, sometimes because I feel that the emotion contained within a written statement or article was a lapse of faith and does not actually reflect the Real of my life in Christ. Today I want to crack the door on a little of both-- and share an excerpt from a post I didn't published this month last year, and share a little victory that is wrapped up in someone else's story.<br />
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<b>Ok. Maybe not everyone. Maybe this is just me. Maybe I am a little lazier than the average. I find that my creativity, self-discipline, motivation and ambition is all directed toward my kids and keeping our house running as smoothly and possible, so that at the end of the day I flop onto the couch in a daze and I spend the evening pretty much just staring at a page or screen. And let me disillusion you, the book is rarely any great work of literature. Basic pop fiction, at best.</b> </blockquote>
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<b>I remember things being different in years past. I remember crafts, writing, music and gardening all being a way to relax and recharge, a refreshing return to adult pursuits after a day of caring for little children. Why is it different now? </b><b><br /></b><b>Sometimes I look at my hum-drum life and feel a burden of guilt over the waste of my life's potential. Generations of musical talent. Hours of practice. For what? My own sons can't carry a tune. Why don't I sing with them? I don't know. They aren't interested. It would be another thing I would have to carry them through, motivate them, nag them, use what few sparks of creative energy I have to light THEIR fires. And I feel inadequate to the task. Vastly, unattainably inadequate.</b> </blockquote>
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<b>As it is, I can barely get through THEIR music/math/language/reading. I finish their school day at 2:30 and what do I have left to spend on myself? Exercise? Hobbies? Music? Art? Well, I have to take care of the household chores, communicate somewhat with the outside world (emails, phone calls, appointments, etc), go pick up Sofi, be her mother for a few brief moments. Run errands? Grocery shop? There's always something. And then dinner. And bedtimes. And barely enough sleep to drag myself out of bed again the next day to start it all over again.</b> </blockquote>
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After I wrote that, I may have cried a little. I'm pretty sure I did. I didn't have a reason to explain my lethargy and fatigue. I cried again when a new friend here in VA referred to me as her "dear introverted friend" Y'all. I am not an introvert. I was just exhausted. Drained. I started to wonder if it was possible in one's late 30s to suddenly change personalities completely? I felt like maybe I had just used up all but the dregs of my personality-- maybe this is what the dreaded Middle Age was like?<br />
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As I look back over that post and remember where I was at that time, I am convinced that while about half of that was just the upheaval of the move, the other half was a further development in my continual saga of hormone dysfunction. If you've never heard of <a href="https://adrenalfatiguesolution.com/adrenal-fatigue-symptoms/" target="_blank">Adrenal Fatigue</a>, google it. Seriously. If you are a mom, or a woman who's life is similarly stressful and demanding, you need to know about this and you need to know how to care for yourself in order to avoid or treat it.<br />
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Those of you who follow me on FB know that I found relief in a concoction of herbs and supplements from Plexus Worldwide-- the famous Pink Drink. I will explain in more detail what I'm doing (and the ingredients) in my next post. But suffice it to say for now that I traded that tired, uninspired, "middle-aged" me in for a new, tougher, stronger, healthier, more inspired me; plus I gained a new vision, a new business and a new sense of calling in my life, to boot! I am so thankful that the Lord put this into my life with such perfect timing!<br />
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<br />lislynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10226221709279544399noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8693690641892596564.post-17700713034195774192017-02-06T14:09:00.000-05:002017-02-06T14:14:35.488-05:00The changing face of Mothercare.<i>I have always been a vocal advocate of the practice of self-care. Frequently on this blog, in my Facebook feed, and any chance I get in person, I exhort my fellow-moms to set aside time to refresh themselves, so that they can return with full cups to the daily duty of pouring themselves out for their spouses, children and whomever else depends on them for daily needs. I try to model it. </i><i> I host Girl's Nights, book clubs, and parties. I swoop down and carry off overly-pregnant girlfriends for dates at the spa. I drop by with care packages for new moms. I block out Friday nights and Sunday afternoons several times a month to go out with J, or spend time window shopping. I learned early in my mothering (thanks to some excellent books and mentors) to grab tightly onto every quick moment to suck in a few deep breaths of relief and freedom whenever opportunity presented itself.</i><br />
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lislynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10226221709279544399noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8693690641892596564.post-37021533599330869992017-01-03T08:57:00.001-05:002017-01-03T08:59:27.143-05:00#wordoftheyear<div class="tr_bq">
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<span class="indent-1" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box;"><span class="text Lam-3-24" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;"><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I choose this word first of all because I want to be reminded of this aspect of the character of God as I walk through my year. He is an inexhaustible fountain of mercy, provision, and loving care. I want to remember daily in 2017 the expression of His steadfastness throughout my life. I want to meditate on my Ebeneezers-- those piles of stones in my life marking out His particular attentions.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">The serendipitous devotional reading was from "Quotidian Mysteries: Laundry, Liturgy and Women's Work" -- a book that I highly recommend any time I get a chance to recommend a book. Another of Kathleen Norris' books, "Acedia and Me" was a life-changing read for me in 2011, after Jamie was born and I was stranded in a new city with a newborn and two other small children, missing my friends and feeling as though I had forgotten who I was outside of Chief Cook and Bottle Washer. I highly recommend that one, too. It was Norris who sent me to that passage in Lamentations and she goes on to speak of the application of steadfastness in our daily tasks:</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white;"><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><i>Laundry, liturgy and women's work all serve to ground us in the world and they need not grind us down. Our daily tasks, whether we perceive them as drudgery or essential, life-supporting work, do not define who we are as women or as human beings, But they have a considerable spiritual import, and their significance for Christian theology, the way they come together in the fabric of faith, is not often appreciated. </i><b style="font-style: italic;">But it is daily tasks, daily acts of love and worship that serve to remind us that religion is not strictly an intellectual pursuit,</b><i> and these days it is easy to lose sight of that as, like our society itself, churches are becoming more politicized and polarized. </i><b style="font-style: italic;">Christian faith is a way of life,</b><i> not an impregnable fortress made up of ideas; not a philosophy, not a grocery list of beliefs. </i><span style="font-size: x-small;">(emphasis mine)</span></span></span></blockquote>
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My sister posted a confessional about her weekly Sunday night dread of the return to the homeschooling routine of Monday morning on Facebook tonight and I responded with one of my favorite quotes, "Courage, dear heart" It's Aslan's voice, speaking to Lucy in the depths of dread darkness. Those words echo frequently in my heart when things seem dark and confusing...<br />
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Mothers, wives, sisters... If you are facing this week with a feeling of dread, inadequacy, fear, or heartache; if life beyond the relative comfort of the weekend feels just a little beyond your ability to manage or direct, remember that He bids you be of good courage. If you are hiding in a wine press, frantically trying to thresh out a little wheat before the marauding Mideonites come to devastate and destroy, remember that when He looks at you, because of Christ, He names you a Mighty Woman of Valor.<br />
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You are a Mighty Woman of Valor, dear heart.<br />
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<i><span style="font-size: x-small;">Also, remember the marauding Mideonites are cute some of the time.</span></i>lislynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10226221709279544399noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8693690641892596564.post-26891708921499720152016-11-27T00:03:00.000-05:002016-11-27T00:03:18.785-05:00Storytellers<i><b>I hosted a party tonight for a friend who's recently started marketing for KEEP Collective-- a jewelry line from Stella and Dot. The mission of the line is to help women tell their stories through symbolic charms and symbols that you can personalize. When I first heard my friend talk about this concept, I didn't really get it. I mean, the brand is basically a grown-up version of the charm bracelet. The pieces are cute, but... Lots of jewelry is cute. But during the course of the party, I got it. And, as I am wont, I found a deeper symbolism in what they're trying to do...</b></i><br />
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My friend gathered us all together and started the introductions. She told us about her life and her twin daughters, she showed us her necklace and told us the significance of it. Then she had each person tell how they met me <i>(I was the common denominator in a group of women who mostly, but not all, knew each other)</i> and give three words that described me for them and then three words that they felt symbolized themselves, or this particular stage in their lives.<br />
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At first it was awkward. I do not like being the center of attention unless I am teaching, or telling a funny story, performing-- in control of the script, so to speak. But as each friend, most of them new, in this new place, in this new part of my life; as each friend shared their experience of meeting me and then affirmed verbally to me, in my hearing, that they saw this thing in me, that they saw this or that part of me, that they knew something about me, I felt a spreading warmth and confidence that I did not realize I had been missing in this new place... And I gradually began to see another piece of this truth about women needing women that has been a part of God's teaching in my life ever since I can remember.... We need this from each other. <b>We need to tell, not just our own stories, but each other's. We need to deliberately affirm for each other who we are, what we do, what we think and believe, what we are doing and why. We need to remind each other often of who we are, and why. </b><br />
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Women, in the daily grind of housework, office work, mothering, infertility, loss, moving, never going anywhere, having no place to go, laundry, cooking, yard work; whatever it is that drains you of identity and makes you forget who you are, and why... we need to have someone who will look into our eyes and say, "I see you. I know who you are. Remember this? This is who you are, this is why." So much of what we do goes unnoticed, unseen. A large part of our daily activity is cyclical, unmade as quickly as it is made (cooking, cleaning, laundry). I believe we crave, sometimes unconsciously. a witness that we exist outside of those things: <b>that there is something continuous, something linear in us that is essentially Us.</b> We sisters ought to be that witness to each other.<br />
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<b>I ended the night with the deep urge to text all my friends and tell them; </b><i>I see you. I know you. You are a reader, teacher, artist. You are a musician, teacher, creator of beauty. You are strong, vibrant, loyal. You are warm, caring, welcoming. You are driven, articulate, creative. You are gentle, loving, humble. You are curious, intelligent, caring. I see you. I see each of you. I name you. Thank you for being in my life</i>.<br />
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<br />lislynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10226221709279544399noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8693690641892596564.post-22627891815920731142016-08-26T14:29:00.000-04:002019-04-13T00:15:03.672-04:00Reflections on a story he told me about game time at Trail Lifelislynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10226221709279544399noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8693690641892596564.post-78649566363917875162016-08-14T22:38:00.000-04:002016-08-14T22:38:31.958-04:00written one spring, in a moment of loss and longing<i><b>god is the ocean and the boat</b></i><br />
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my life swells and sinks to the rhythm of his providence<br />
safe in his will, i float above the unpredictable tempests<br />
protected alike from storm dangers and the whispering doldrums<br />
that suck men's souls out of their bodies<br />
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I sail along a steady course, every tack and jib secure<br />
my every line written on his hand<br />
my future safe, my harbor sure<br />
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should my boat seem to sink beneath me, <br />
deserting me, helpless, to the fury of the roiling deep,<br />
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<i><b>god is the ocean, too.</b></i><br />
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should my limbs fail me, should I seem to gasp my last breath and slide at last <br />
beneath the waves of grief, loss, indecision, pain and parting,<br />
surrendering in my struggle<br />
should my lungs slowly fill and my body sink<br />
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I would find myself still cradled in his wisdom<br />
I would come to rest on the ocean floor<br />
and there see that I laid at last still in his caring<br />
in the very bosom of his love for me<br />
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<b><i>god is the boat and the ocean</i></b>lislynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10226221709279544399noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8693690641892596564.post-24197842574191982762016-01-21T20:06:00.000-05:002016-01-21T20:06:18.175-05:00Every day after the schoolwork is done, the Davies boys and the Forshey boys go outside. It's an explosion of pent-up, barely contained energy that is, I admit it, somewhat exhilarating to watch. Exhilarating in spite of the fact that I'm one of the ones trying to barely contain it all day. With cajoling, threats, bribes, distractions, time-outs and a constant stream of chores and re-direction (and sometimes push-ups, jumping-jacks and laps around the house), it takes all my energy and concentration to keep the beach ball of energy pushed, barely submerged, beneath the ocean surface of functional order and propriety.<br />
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Then comes that moment. That blessed moment when the last page of Latin copywork is finished, or the last math problem solved, or the last recitation given; and the mother can finally release her grip on the beach ball and let it *pop* to the surface and then, blessedly, OUT THE DOOR.<br />
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Sometimes the pounding is on my door, sometimes my boys are pounding on her door:<br />
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"Can Judah/Jamie/Brinley/Smith/Henry come out NOW???"<br />
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Yes, thank the Lord, yes. They can come out now.<br />
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And then OUT they go. With a whoosh and a yell and a holler and shove/wrestle/trip/hustle out the door they go into the neighborhood. A forgiving tolerant neighborhood, thankfully. Perhaps we should issue a warning, or blast a theme song out into the frosty air as a warning Whoop! Whoop! Whoop! The boys are OUT! The boys are LOOSE! A theme song and a slogan. The boys are coming. The kracken is released. The hordes descend upon you. The Buckaroos Ride Again.<br />
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So far this morning I have swept the floor four times.<br />
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2) Millions of tiny styrofoam balls scattered in a trail from the basement, up the stairs, back down the stairs, into the kitchen, across the living room floor and aaaaall over the rug in the school room where I sent them to watch Wild Kratts while I swept up the million styrofoam balls.<br />
3) Globs of dried mud and, let's be honest, probably also dog poop, stomped out of the cleats of their rain boots WHILE I yelled at them from the yard to take the boots off BEFORE they stomped into the house.<br />
4) Handfuls of dried up playdough fragments, scattered carelessly across the dining room rug, again WHILE I yelled at him to go get the dust pan and not to try and carry the whole mess to the kitchen in one hand.<br />
5) <i><span style="font-size: x-small;">(oh yeah, five times. I've swept the floor five times since breakfast)</span></i> A trail of hard boiled egg yolk crumbs, flung from the lunch plate as he waltzed it to the kitchen sink, arms waving "gracefully" along the way.<br />
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Don't wrestle with the dog.<br />
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DON"T wrestle with the dog.<br />
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Don't WRESTLE with the DOG, she will BITE you if you get her so wound UP.<br />
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See? I told you. Don't wrestle with anything that has bigger teeth than you do. Excellent life principle.<br />
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The same child who sprinkled the playdough crumbs all over the dining room rug, dumped the leftover handful into the kitchen trash can without checking to make sure the trash BAG was securely fastened over the edge of the can. It wasn't. All the play dough landed ON TOP of the crumpled-at-the-bottom trash bag.<br />
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DON"T WRESTLE WITH THE DOG. ONE OF THESE DAYS SHE IS GOING TO BITE YOUR FACE OFF.<br />
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Me: Where in the world is Jamie??<br />
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Me: *wandering all over the house looking for missing child*<br />
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Me: *yelling out all the doors and windows for missing child*<br />
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Me: *texting neighbors, asking if missing child is at their house*<br />
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Me: *sending older brother to find missing child and drag him home*<br />
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<s>Missing</s> Found child: I TOLD you I was going over the the twin's house...<br />
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Me: *yelling*<br />
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DO NOT WHISTLE WHILE I AM YELLING AT YOU AND TUG OF WAR IS THE EXACT SAME THING AS WRESTLING<br />
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<i><b>I'm not even going to wrap this up with anything positive and affirming. We all know there are plenty of days like this in parenting. Probably more than any of us want to admit. The miracle is, by God's grace and with a sense of humor (and a blog) we keep on, regardless. I will probably have to ask my boys' forgiveness several more times before the end of the day and maybe we'll all get a laugh out of it one day.</b></i><br />
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<a href="http://www.mylivesignature.com/" target="_blank"><img src="http://signatures.mylivesignature.com/54487/59/F2BBA956CA45DCAA01123C0F8D1258CA.png" style="-moz-background-clip: -moz-initial; -moz-background-inline-policy: -moz-initial; -moz-background-origin: -moz-initial; background: transparent none repeat scroll 0% 0%; border: 0pt none ! important;" /></a>lislynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10226221709279544399noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8693690641892596564.post-16049797240154977242015-10-15T07:07:00.001-04:002015-10-15T07:07:45.809-04:00RandomnessSometimes the most innocuous things can completely derail our homeschool day. For example, yesterday while teaching Judah his new piano piece ("Honey Bee"), I randomly hummed my way through that old camp song "Bringing Home a Baby Bumblebee". Everything ground to a screeching halt.<br />
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"Wait, what? WHY would he think his mother would be proud that he was bringing home a bee?? I don't get it... WHY did he squish it up? Wouldn't it just sting him again? Wait, wha-wha-what kind of bee was it? Was it a HONEY bee, or a BUMBLE bee? Probably it was a bumblebee cause then it would just die after it stung him that first time because bumblebees leave their stingers in your body and then they DIE. But African HONEYbees, they can sting and sting and sting."<br />
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And earlier in the morning...<br />
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"Wait.. wha?? What'sa phone book?? Why would you want your phone number written down in a BOOK?"<br />
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<a href="http://www.mylivesignature.com/" target="_blank"><img src="http://signatures.mylivesignature.com/54487/59/F2BBA956CA45DCAA01123C0F8D1258CA.png" style="-moz-background-clip: -moz-initial; -moz-background-inline-policy: -moz-initial; -moz-background-origin: -moz-initial; background: transparent none repeat scroll 0% 0%; border: 0pt none ! important;" /></a>lislynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10226221709279544399noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8693690641892596564.post-66179564025611246432015-10-13T07:52:00.001-04:002015-10-13T07:52:08.703-04:00<i>On the mornings when the boys <b>don't</b> wake up at zero dark thirty and stand at the top of the stairs with a constant stream of, "NOW can we come down, Mama, NOW can we?"... On these mornings when they kindly sleep a wee bit longer and I have a minute to read and pray and jot down some thoughts... </i><br />
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On these mornings I sit at my dining room table and watch the sun rise. The window faces west, so what I see is a line of brilliant sunshine slowly traveling down the line of trees in the nieghbor's yard across the street. They gradually turn a golden green from top to bottom till they are on fire entirely. Some mornings a steamy mist eminates from the cold ground as the warmth of the sun hits it. I had forgotten about that steamy morning mist of cold autumn days, the mysterious shapes and undulations as the sun rises and burns off the night's chill.<br />
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As the sun continues to rise and the light travels down the little hill and across the grass, my fingers travel faster across the keys because a moment will come and... ahhh, there it is. The light hits the the white picket fence, a flash of reflection blinds one eye, and I hear the boys rumbling and tumbling out of bed.<br />
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<i>Time to start the day.</i><br />
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